Roadrunner Musings

It’s Friday! Again!

Ok…well…that week got away from me!

What stops me from spending time with the words? I’m not sure. I tend to be a bit flaky at everything, honestly. I swing from highly organized and productive to “Lucifer” needs to be watched and there are Cheez-its to eat and Coke to drink! There is little middle ground. This week, I let it happen and decided not to be mad at myself. And here I am.

I still did a lot of stuff this week. I helped my son with a couple things. I worked in the yard. The groceries were bought. I made dinners. The basics are covered. It was just that I was fascinated with Facebook this week and talking to some new people. I did a lot of thinking, too. And I finished a book and started a new one.

Here’s my Friday Wrap-Up. Hope yours was awesome!

Thing I learned: Sometimes our emotional growth injures others unintentionally and maybe we should be a little kinder to each other.

Thing I’m reading: Started reading Mark Manson’s “Everything is Fucked” and it’s awesome. In his interview with Aubrey Marcus, he said he’d piss off people with this one. He was right. I was pissed off. How dare he?! But…I’ve learned to keep an open mind and see where a writer goes with his outrageous thinking. Even if I don’t agree with him in the end, I’ll have learned something interesting, something to take with me.

Thing I heard: “We are only as needy as our unmet needs.” – John Bowlby. I read this on Instagram this week and thought of my kids. We “radically unschooled” our kids. That’s a whole can of worms to open, but it’s related to that quote because I learned something from raising my kids this way. When people of all ages need something, they act out in ways to get it. Not all the ways people act out are positive. Yes, we need to learn positive ways to get what we need, but sometimes it’s good to understand the negative ways. People aren’t evil. They need something. Many of us don’t even know what we need, let alone how to ask for it.

Thing I want to do: Stop being so stinking insecure!! Ugg…I’m a mess sometimes. I want so desperately to be able to say, “This is me!” and not care if anyone notices. Instead, I say, “This is me!” quietly in the background and if anyone responds I smile. It no one reacts, I duck my head and wonder if they didn’t hear me or they are politely ignoring the weird woman. I only want to be seen and heard if everyone agrees I’m awesome. I’m terrified of being ridiculed for my crazy ass ways. It’s not very conducive to growth!

Oh! And a picture of the week…

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It’s me! Feeling cute! Part of working on the insecure part…liking myself!

Have a great weekend everyone!

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